It has been quite some time since I have written here. Life has been kinda a crazy, that and I think I forgot I had an account here. I don’t deal with stress all too well, especially when it seems to be a bit more than I can handle.
Stress these days seems to be more about my personal life. When that happens it affects everything else in my life. The worst part is, is when it affects school. I don’t like having to drop classes, or there is the one class I failed due to stress. There are so many things I can do to help with the stress, but the joy that is me, when stress hits and it becomes too much, then it’s friend depression hits. For example tonight I have (had) dance practice, which is always a good time, but instead I took a nap. I know what I should be doing and it constantly runs through my mind, I just become too lazy for my own good. Another wonderful side effect for me is eating. I love to eat when I am stressed out.
It’s funny because I give my friends a hard time when they lose weight, because it somehow seems to find me. I know it’s not them, and I know there is so much more that I can be doing to combat this, and actually reverse it, but again I am too lazy for my own good.
I do love my friends and family. A good friend of mine is going to Switzerland for a couple weeks, which means I have a roof over my head for another month. This is a great thing, since I am only working part time right now and can barely afford to live. I make just enough to pay bills and live paycheck to paycheck. For those who are reading this and thinking “man does she wine a lot,” this is just a place for me to vent so my friends don’t have to listen to this or take on any burden of mine.
I am going to stop venting now and try and get some home work done before i get myself too far behind again.