We all do it. We get in our own way when it comes to various things in life. When we want to learn something, meeting new people, trying new things. It happens almost every day.
I have been getting in my own way for a long time and finally decided to step aside. This last weekend I was house sitting for a friend and in order for me to stay there and be able to get to work and home I had to learn to drive a stick shift. There was no way around it because I don’t have my own vehicle right now. My friend was kind enough to take me out and show me the ropes. We had one night of driving and then I was on my own. The nice thing about the vehicle, was that it was pretty simple to learn on. I had the car for four days. I have to say I am pretty proud of myself. Still not so sure about hills with a stick shift, but everything else was just fine. I don’t know why I didn’t get out of my own way along time ago. It feels good to overcome a mild fear and know that I can still accomplish things that can seem so frightening and sometimes impossible.
I can’t believe how fast 2010 flew by. I have to say it was one of my least favorite years so far. I did learn a lot from all of the challenges it presented me. The new year is off to a pretty good start. Going to do things a lot differently this year.
1. Going to put myself out there more. Open up to new experiences, changes, challenges, and the possibility of getting hurt. Without these things one really isn’t living, they are mostly hiding avoiding life in order to avoid getting hurt. Getting hurt is a part of life. Its how we learn and grow to become a better person.
2. Create new adventures. Life is all about experiences and what you make of it. If you don’t do anything, how can you experience life and all it has to offer?
3. Open my heart to love (with the possibility of pain). I have noticed in myself that I have been to scared at the possibility of getting hurt to know what its like to really love someone. I know the one I’m meant to be with is out there. I just have to open my heart to let him in.
I’m tired of this rut I seem to be stuck in. I need to break out of my shell and start living life to its fullest, not just sitting around waiting for things to happen. Time to start making things happen.